Thursday, September 02, 2004 @8:16 PM
Han called me a moment ago... and was sobbing uncontrollably the moment I took over the phone. Over the next 5 minutes, we didn't converse at all. I kept quiet and allowed her to cry her heart out until she felt better. I guess it's all about Willie again. He is the one and only who is able to reduce the usually-cheerful Han to tears. After reading her lw blog (if you don't know, don't bother knowing.), what can I say? Love in a hard way hurts. Yea, terribly too. I really believe that it takes a certain level of maturity to fall in love and to analyse both yours and your partner's varying emotions and feellings. I am not in a position to judge her love for Willie as I haven't been in a relationship yet. At this age, I am very certain that I can't handle my life with love at the same time. Not yet. Not at this age. Loving someone takes a great deal of energy, time and brain power. I think I will just collapse of fatigue if I commit to that NOW. Juggling both my schoolwork and family time is already a challenge. So, tasting the power of love will come years later, I guess. Jiayou ba, Han. Anything just call or talk to me ok? Don't just keep things within you, it will just explode one day.
A huge downpour came upon us after school, just steps away from the school gate. It caused a frenzy state! Rushed to the nearest bus stop screaming away. ha! Han, Ah Ma, Yue Qiu, Fu Er and I were screaming our lungs out under the HDB flats because of the strong wind that caused my umbrella to turn upside down. For a fleeting moment, I thought I will be blown away with the wind too! o_O We had a hard time persuading Fu Er not to go for her Maths tuition because of the bad weather. Anything may happen. She finally agreed, to my greatest relief! =) On 51, the rain subdued. -bleah- We were all drenched to the skin.
Given my situation now, I have a goal in mind and I will definitely work towards it. I believe I can do it with sheer determination. With a plan in mind and the strong will to do well, I can! GO! I wouldn't let myself down again!