Saturday, September 04, 2004 @7:18 PM
" Memory wanders as shadows fall
Back to days of happiness,
Days beyond recall
A vision comes before us
So calm, so dear, so sweet
Passed beyond the mist that binds us here
Into the never larger life
Of that clouded sphere "
Jiayou ba. You know we will be here for you. Rest well and don't think too much. The strength of our hearts will be the pillar of support for you.
Han had been crying non-stop for the past few days, closing to a week. Even as her laopo, I really don't know what to do for her. After reading her lw blog, my heart just goes all out to her. What can I say? Loving someone in a tough way is painful. And yea, it hurts terribly too. It just pricks you deep, beyond your soul, beyond the right state of mind to think. It is always my belief that going into a relationship requires a certain level of maturity, to be able to put yourself into your partner's shoes and sense the varying emotions he/she is going through at the moment. Loving someone takes up lots of energy, time and brainpower. Keeping my schoolwork and family life in balance is already a challenge for me. To me, I am certain that I am not able to handle my life with love imbedded in it yet. At least not for now. So, tasting the power of love will come years later, when I am all ready for it. I hope the future
Him will be ready for me too.
(Han, choosing this path of road was your choice and no doubt, you will have to handle the pain it brings you. I can't judge your love for him, as I myself have not been in love. Something to keep in mind: I will be always there for you. I may not be able to talk to you through the phone everyday (you know the reason) but don't underestimate my care and concern for you. Yes, others may have more time to spare for you but I hope that you wouldn't forget someone who is always quietly praying for you here. Take care and try not to drown yourself in sadness (although I know it's tough). Think of him being happy and healthy now, preparing for his examinations. You will be happier this way. Jiayou ba, Han. We all love you. God too. If you can't talk to anyone, just talk to God. He may not be able to take your sorrows away forever, but for that moment, you know you are secure.)