Sunday, October 24, 2004 @1:32 PM
I just feel that when things go wrong, I am always the one at fault, the one to be blamed. I really hate that feeling. I have never wanted you to be stranded in the rain and get drenched before you go to work. I waited for them at the bus stop, 4 334 buses have left and I continued waiting until the rain came. I was drenched too. I ran across the overhead bridge while the rain continue to hit on me. I called you just to inform you... but what did I get? Nothing, just another hang up. What's the problem with the both of us? I don't know. Why is it that we are always ending up with a hang up on the phone? My heart aches. It really aches.
What have I done wrong? Can someone please just tell me my mistake? The Gods in heaven wanted it to rain at this moment... I can't stop them. Is that my fault too? I was looking forward to today's game too. But sadly, it ended off so... tragically. I was thoroughly wet too when I got home. I can understand how you feel, having waiting for someone when the rain just come pouring on you. I am in the same situation too, the difference is that I waited for them at the bus stop and got equally wet when I ran across the overhead bridge.
We have gone through so much together but I am always experiencing a hang up. At least about 5 times already. 5 times! This equates to 5 cuts left in my heart. Those cuts through my heart are much worse than what I felt when I failed my A Maths.
My tears are streaming down my cheeks like the rain outside my window. But you can never see them, for, I am always the one at fault.