I seriously don't know what to say. Maybe just one word: Touched.

"thanks serene.
at times when i was most desperate, when i was so lost, serene will come and help me, forbaing sanity from deserting me completely. when i hear her voice, her comforting voice stop anxiety and frustration to come near.
just now i broke down after one hour looking desperately for someone to help me, with avail. then, i thought of serene. i called, and it got through. and my tears started flowing.
theres just one thing ive got to thank god. i am really grateful that he introduced serene into my life. i really dunno what i will be like if serene wasnt beside me helping and guiding me.
thanks serene."

My heart pricked before this when she said that she wrote about us in her mid-year composition. We are just like sisters.

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
when the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
when care is pressing you down a bit,
rest, if you must,
but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
as everyone of us sometimes learns,
and many a failure turns about when he might have won had he stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow,
you may succeed with another blow.
Success is failure turned inside out.
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
and you never can tell how close you are,
it may be near when it seems so far;
so stick to the fight when you're hardest hit,
it's when things go wrong,
that you must not quit!

RVCO got a gold. Without Honours.
I cried very badly, almost trying to cry my life out. Everyone else too. We wept openly. It's just so saddening to see people around me breaking down, one by one.
The inital sadness is over, leaving behind only beautiful memories of the process of RVCO growing up together. We did our best and so, we accepted our results.

Our juniors will get back what's rightfully ours in the future, yet when i took another look at them, my heart aches. Were all of us just trying to put on a brave front?

"In life knowing how to lose is often just as important as knowing how to win... Just as important? No, more important. Just how often do we get to win?" - 65 stories by a Singaporean by Goh Sin Tub.

Thanks to Jie, Mrs Choy, Ms (Linda) Chan, You Wei for their comfort. All I need now is time. Time to get over it.

Another 2 pieces of SYF good news!

RVCB (Concert Band) achieved Gold with Honours! YEA! I'm glad their hard work paid off! *Weekiat, you don't have to worry anymore. But please continue to pray for CO yea? I did pray for Band!

AND... RVDS (Dance society, Girls) too achieved Gold with Honours... =) Good job done!

(Isn't it ironic? The one who dictates what she wanted from us, didn't even do what she dictates. ha.)

6 more days!

More news on RVHS's SYF...

One good news! Dance society (Boys) got Gold with Honours! =) They performed yesterday. Miss Ek announced this piece of good news over the PA system this morning. Today, dance society (Girls) went for the SYF competition. I guess the results will be out tomorrow morning! -cross fingers-

The next team up will be RVCB (Concert Band)! Jiayou!!!! I'll be praying for you guys...

8 more days for CO...

And ya.. to help my younger sis (Eileen, 1A) with her campaigning, I shall advertise here! All my friends out there who sees this message, please do support my sister with her dream of becoming an SC. Do vote for her in Edulearn once announcement for voting is out sometime next week, I guess. Thanks!

AIYA... (Mdm Soh), my tagboard is always down. I tried to leave a message... SAFE. The second time... DOWN!

I am sick. Down with fever and sore throat. Actually it started off with yesterday with slight sore throat.. and after a day I had fever in school. 38 degrees. I got so shocked with that figure. I guess it's because I didn't measure my temperature since I was young until the government gave out free thermometers during the SARS period.

After lunch in school, I felt I couldn't take it anymore and went to look for Mr Tan (Chen Quan Long lao shi) for permission not to attend CO but I met with Miss Wan (Huang Qiu Ying lao shi) instead. She helped me look for Mr Tan. Couldn't find him so she decided to let me off on her own accord and gave me her handphone number so that I could sms her once I reached home. During the period of waiting outside the staffroom, Mrs Look saw me leaning against the wall sickly and asked what happened. Told her and she was really concern and started questioning me. It's really nice of her.

While leaving the school compound, I met Mr Tan and told him what happened. He too gave me his handphone number and reminded me to call him once I reached home. Tried to make my way home asap... my temperature escalated further. =S Slept right after I bathed until now, having in auntie (maid) feeding me medicine and luo han guo in between my sleep. So grateful to her. My temperature is now 36.7 degrees. But my sore throat is still so persistant!

I really hope I can make it to tomorrow's rehearsal at SCH. It's really so important, as it's the one and only rehearsal for CO. Mr Tan "warn" me in his sms that if I'm still not feeling well tomorrow, I better not come. Please pray for me!

Read Han's blog. Really liked the part where her yearning for RV is felt. That touched me a lot. I guess I'll get to experience that feeling once I leave RV.

"sigh. i couldnt help but compare everything in ghim moh with rv. i guess i still havent got used to this new environment. i am comparing the teachers, the buildings, the food sold in canteen, the classrooms, the field, the everything.. frankly speaking, i am missing RV... loads. even the performances during assembly in RV is of higher standard than those in ghim moh.
u only know how to appreciate something when you lose it."

A good news that tops the list!

RV chorale brought back glory with nothing less than a Gold with Honours!!! YEA! =) Miss Ek was practically shouting into the PA system. =)

Feeling very happy and proud of them... I bet songhua is very relaxed now. I saw him in school in the afternoon and finally, I saw a face that is written with joy and contentment after months! I know that he's been battling with lots of problems, just so glad to know that he'd emerged victorious!

The few teams up next will be Dance! For boys' team, next Tuesday and girls' next Wednesday! Then it will be Band, 15 April. ELDDS, 19 April, RVCO 21 April! (I'm sorry I don't know when is CLDDS date for SYF. Anybody who knows please inform me!) Continue to pray for RV performing arts groups!!!

Jiayou CO! Just 16 more days!

*Turn left, turn right is really touching! I love the show! =)
"They're both convinced; that a sudden passion joined them. Such certainty is beautiful, but uncertainty is more beautiful still. "-- "Love at First Sight" Wislawa Szymborska, a Poland female poet.

Careless, careless, I'm just too careless.
The initial irritation in me is over. A passing phase.
I've learnt my mistakes and moved on. Have you?

P.S: It's SYF for RV Chorale tomorrow! Good luck and jiayou!!!! =)

Yea... this entry is to thank Han for being so understanding... Here's what she wrote in her blog:

"serene: i went to your blog lah. and tagged. but after i sent it realised the tagboard is down. so seems tt u din receive. well, just to say tt i received ya smsES and read all of them. well, bad luck yea? sigh** anyways, i went to love__ email but as i havent been signing on for a few months, hotmail closed it. so i din receive ya email. sorry. i know u really spent some time typing. many many apologies. next time email to wuhan123 lah. this one i check everyday)"

Hey gal, read your latest entry and I really know what you are talking about. Poor thing, actually I thought so too that you are actually lying to yourself when you told me you are not. You really don't have to force yourself to forget Him, just take Him as part of your life. Perhaps that will make you feel better. I can't really talk to you about it on the phone anymore, but through any means, just keep me informed ok? Do take care of yourself as you are handling many national projects with position as a key personnal, your teachers and peers are counting on you.

I'll always be there for you.

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girl.chinese.singapore.060789.21.
jps.rvhs.rvco.liuqin/zhongruan.
hci06A12.huangcheng2006.<<9>>.
njc06A01.njco.aerius.
ORKO/KUZA.
NTU HSS Sociology Year 3.

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jogging.chineselanguage.
oil painting.chinese pop music.
breakfast.books.writing.beauty sleep.time.
933.baking.gatherings
harry potter.mocha.egg tarts.
ice cream.hugs.shopping.
flowers.

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lies.being sick.

WISHES
good health all year round.
40kg.more sleep time.
my own room.
DKNY Be Delicious.
Ice Cream Maker.Canon G12.
Overseas holiday/getaway.