Sunday, February 12, 2006 @12:54 PM
i'm sick AGAIN. =(
This is the second time I'm down within 2 months.
Had high fever during Huang Cheng and I asked for permission to leave early. Some people didn't seem happy though. I'm just a weak person, but do you think I like to be sick?
When the fever kicked in, my hands and feet started to turn cold. But I felt like I'm burning inside. My throat and head were excruciatingly painful. Then the cold fits came, and I shivered hard. Just kept crying. The night seemed extremely long because my sleep was disturbing. Maybe the severity of my sickness was due to the built up of the recent events.
Now, I just feel like throwing everything away. All the responsiblities, stress, problems, heartaches AWAY. I don't know what I'm doing with my life now. It's been a long time since I felt so lost.
I really didn't live up to expectations. Disappointed many people. Especially myself. Such a failure in my family. I try to mask my emotions but deep down, I know I'm still not perfectly right yet. yea, it's over. I must get over it. thanks to all those who cared for me: my family, Squad (esp han, jen), wei feng, miss kel-li chia, Cat, songhua, weekiat, youwei, zongxiao, li tian, wenhan, chao hsiang, daoyans and my huangcheng mates etc.
Bitter disappointment.
Jie said: Ying, today's s brand new start, hold your head high, face the world and be proud of your own achievements. All of us are behind you always.
weifeng said: Serene, be strong and move on.
Han said: CHEER UP MANS.
Jen said: ser! must be strong. u know u can do it.
songhua said: We're here!
weekiat said: ya lo, all of us still support you de.
sometimes in life we don't get what we want, but we must be satisfied that what
we get allows us to get to the next rung.
zongxiao said: don't be too sad. life goes on yeah? there's always hope. it's just one trial in our lives. there are many more chances in times ahead. Cheer up gal!
miss chia: Don't take it too hard. I'm still proud of you.
Just let me stay. 让我留下来。